I am the space between...

Ja...Happy B-day kid! I can't believe you're still so young.


Went camping for Averell's b-day this past weekend. It was a blast. It was awesome to hang w/ everyone and just do "nothing," but even moreso, one of the things I enjoy about camping is that I can do a little self-reflection. I remember on the second night, everyone went to bed(we drank a lot this weekend and we'd knock out early). Anyway, it wasn't so early, somewhere around 1 or 2, and I was able to just sit under the stars and stare up and think about life. I was able to just relax, meditate, and realize how blessed my life is. Yeah, I've been through the ringer, but hey, it really could be worse. I could be bereft of the greatest thing God has given me; the people I love in my life. I could be utterly alone and in despair, tormented and completely lost. But I'm not. I have people I can depend on, that care about me, that look out for me, that are there for me to lean on, and that help me the way when I'm in my dark moments. There I sat, relaxing, appreciating nature and the world above me. I was able to take it all in and say to myself, "I am truly lucky to be here and I have so much to be thankful for". I know a lot of the times, I complain, and I grumble about things, but this is exactly what these moments are for; to give you a chance to reflect and think about life.

Lakers 08/09 sched is out! Whoo Hoo! (Thanks Banana!) Damn I miss the Lakers. I realized I barely watch any TV when the Lakers aren't on, or basketball season for that matter. So summer kinda is dead when it comes to TV. They don't even have anything on really, nothing new that is. It's all syndicated shows. I'll watch baseball, but I mostly listen to the games on the rhadgio - or get updates or read up on it. So many games...I tend ot watch more towards the end of the season more closely. And coincidentally, that's when the new season for shows usually takes off.

Of seasons changing and changing
Allergies are acting up a bit. I have to keep clearing my throat. Blah! I hate when the allergies wake up...but one good thing is that I know it means it's summer time, and that means, sunshine and swimming and beach time. It lets me know what season it is, in its own weird way; through itchy eyes and throat, sneezing, and runny noses. Luckily there's meds for that type of stuff. But when I think about summer, I think about fall, and then winter and spring. Just how the seasons come round and round and round again. Life is so cyclic(sp? - too lazy to check right now, sounds and looks right though)....anyway, I digress. Life is definitely cyclic, and when I say that, I mean it in a good and positive way; along the lines of saying, everything will be okay. Cycle - "From dust thou was created and to dust thou shall return." After a fire burns through, plantlife finds a way to recover and grows again not so long after the fire has been extinguished. After the rain? - The rainbow and the sun of course, not to mention the airy freshness you can practically taste. Even when it comes to the seasons - Winter is bitter cold, but then is relieved by the coming of spring, and eventually summer, where it's effin hot as heck, which is then relieved by the fall, and followed by the winter. They balance each other out, and just help maintain order. It just depends on how you want to look at it. Life is the same way...when the winters or summers are taking over our lives...just bear in mind that the spring or fall are on their way to provide relief. That things will always get better, that it just takes time.

Darnit, I forgot to post one of these during the last entry...oh well.
55 small things you can always do
22. Make a habit of doing nice things for folks who won't know it was you.
A truly good deed need not be recognized by anyone. You shouldn't be doing them to get recognized in the first place, and just doing the deed(not that deed) is often times all the reward you need. There's a lot of things you can do. Pick up those plastic bottles and place them in the recycle bin. Do habitat for humanity, participate in an activity in someone's name; donate to charity anonymously, help sponsor a reading camp - so many things you can do, just gotta think of which is the right one for you.

"The healthy, the strong individual, is the one who asks for help when he needs it. Whether he has an abscess on his knee or in his soul."
-Rona Barrett